can I touch you through smoke and ashesBest Practice, 2024

Photos by Lyra Montoya

I cut out my grandfather’s body from family archive photos and rolled the cut-out photopaper into a joint. I then smoked the joint and recited a memory about attending his Zoom funeral, processing how the digital procession made the immateriality of death even more immaterial—unable to feel his departure, to see him, nor to touch him. Through the performance I was able to metaphorically burn his body, inhale it in, and watch the joint turn to ash.

This is a 360 subtitled documentation, you can drag around to view the performance.